So I thought I mastered being a mommy. Lo and I had things down pat! I would come home after work, cook, yea…she would help, like putting the broccoli into the pan, or separating the dough for the biscuits, things like that. After dinner would be bath time, story time, and then time for bed. I would walk back to my room, work on my online master’s program work for an hour, then shop online, or check out social media…
Because that’s the only way I know what’s going on in the adult world…
Sometimes its good to know something other than Paw Patrol or Mutt and Stuff (kids tv shows people). Being organized was very beneficial to me and getting things done.
…and then Kayson came!
Now I feel completely frazzled and disorganized. Dinner is now a quick run to the local Chinese restaurant or pizza parlor. No my disorganization is not due to the birth of my butterball turkey; Kayson, who was born weighing 8 pounds 10 ounces, but the lack of sleep surely is! Kayson literally wakes up every 2 hours to eat! Who eats THAT MUCH?!?!? He wakes up and screams at the top of his lungs until he is fed. Who knew 3 minutes of heating a bottle could seem like eternity! When he screams, Darren and I go into panic mode…”oh dear, please don’t let London hear Kayson and wake up!” When London wakes up it becomes unlimited episodes of Paw Patrol or Mutt and Stuff (remember: kids tv shows people) or unlimited whining.
I love both my children deeply! They mean more to me than anything in this world. They are currently teaching me that life is not about being organized; things do not have to be color-coded and alarms do not have to be set for literally everything! Instead life is about waking up spontaneously to feed your desires-weather it be to eat or to laugh at your favorite tv shows. My life is now “organized chaos.” Two little bodies have taught me so much and I will always appreciate them for that.